June 1, 2011 the date of a draft I happened to find while searching my archives for something. I saved a draft of my chat messages with Mae. I read it once again and I decided to write this. After writing this, maybe.. just maybe, I will be able to delete it and move on.
I know that once the pain is no longer there, I can only smile of how I was, how it was and how things turned the way it did.
I could remember the pain, the regret, the person. Though I don’t feel the pain now, I could only sighed heavily for what has been before and if I went on with the relationship.
I prayed once to have him back. And God gave him back to me, but only for me to realize that there is no future for us. God let me feel the pain and the loss of hope for the relationship that I so wanted to nurture and keep.
I cried my heart out why God did not answer my prayer. But then again, I know God has reasons why. And I know God has better plans for me, I just need to be patient and be ready for whatever comes along.